Running with the shadows of the night...

Wow, what a week this has been.
Seriously.
From the show taking a break this week, not getting into B&B, converstaions with close people, and the lack of business at work...it's been a suck fest.

In fact, so much stuff hit on Monday night that I actually went for a long walk. A two and half hour walk, through North Toledo. Many mixed feelings were battling within me and I did not want to have them at home, so I decided to take off. Most of you don't know me well enough to know that this is not something I would normally do. But it was time to vent. I walked to Meijer from where I live, and then left Meijer to walk to Kroger. In that time I had plenty of free space. It felt so good just to be out of my element, and my comfort zone for that matter.

I'm still feeling the after effects of the experiance. I haven't slept well yet, and this is the week I'm supposed to be able to. There's not too much going on, but it feelings like I'm struggling to go uphill. It would just be easier to turn my back on these things, ignore them, and let them run their course. But I can't do that.

Of course, I couldn't just up and leave my house at 10:45, but I did that.

So I'm at a crossroad of sorts. Where do I go from here. The light is red, the little walking man is flashing. Dare I run across the street, or do I stay here and wait for the next signal?